Trauma

Hi. Hope you had a great day today.

Could we talk for a minute? I'm overthinking things.

• Have you ever been through something SO PAINFUL, that you thought you would never recover?

• Have you ever been through something that was INTENSELY SCARY, that you become this anxious person with panic disorder that you don't recognize but you can remember a time when you used to be so fun! Who is this person you see in the mirror?

• Have you ever been through something so against who you are as a person, that it traumatizes you, and you slowly begin to change who you are to adapt to a situation or a person or a memory?

• Have you been diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Distress or other "disorder"

• Do you have demons that you can't seem to lay to rest?

• Always feel like you are in fight, freeze or flight?

• Shutting down. Not feeling like engaging. Depressed?

Me too. Before we proceed, I would like to start our conversation with gratitude. Gratitude that we are here together to have this talk.

Gratitude that we are standing strong in the midst of the things that mold us into who we are. That no matter how hard it gets, we remember that help is out there, and that no person is ever alone. You don't have to suffer in silence.

Emotions like:

• Bitterness

• Resentment

• Discomfort

• Anger

• Disappointment

• Guilt

• Shame

• Anxiety

• Sadness

Do these things control your thoughts? How about blame? Are you holding onto these things because you blame yourself for the things that were out of your control?

Are your daily vices in this life feeding those demons or just pushing them down temporarily? Emotions are the ingredients to this human experience.

The broken parts of ourselves, that we feed by trying to hide or deny our internal truth.

I'm not a therapist by any means but I have some really great friends that are.

Therapists are angels in disguise. They have a compassion for healing others and an empathy to not want others to feel pain. That is a beautiful thing. If you or someone you know is struggling, please reach out to someone you trust and ask for help.

But you do need to extend a hand and ask.

If you don't stand up for yourself, no one else will when it is needed the most. Because we cannot really expect another person to know what is best. Only we know what is best for ourselves. We really need to stop expecting others to know.

And don't be ashamed, no judgements here. I live in a judgement free zone. I am just like you. Living life rituals, just trying to figure it out; so be kind to yourself. There are other humans out there that need to hear your story so that we can all heal.

And if you happen to find yourself here, and you are in the midst of losing your mind trying to figure out how to turn these emotions around, it starts with you. I will say, it is up to you to heal you. You have to hold the mirror to your own face and look at the things we hide. You know the secrets we run from. And it is going to hurt like hell to kick its ass, but in the end, it hurts worse if you never confront the pain and time is short, that is not the state of mind we are meant to live while we are here on earth.

It starts inside us to figure out how to heal and let go of the very things that hold us back from success and happiness. These negative things we let in can destroy relationships to a state of no repair. They can destroy lives.

But I promise you as sure as I breathe, when you have the right people in your life, the healing happens. It's scary to think of what life would be like without carrying the weight of the traumas that we burden ourselves with as if they are relevant forever, rather than in a moment of precious time. Why can't we hold it briefly, like happiness?

Why do these have so much power over human experience? Because without it, there is no balance. Balance to understand when things feel like the emotions above, the secrets that eat at us, we wouldn't be able to experience the positives on the other side of the scale.

I'm not saying anyone should suffer. But we all do to some degree because it is the living law of humanity. To learn, to love, to live the experiences that are what makes up, LIFE.

I will touch on all of these at some point, as I worked through some stuff too.

But I have found, there really is a pot of gold at the end of the proverbial rainbow.

The rewards far outweigh the pain.

Let's sit here with our pain for just a moment. Then we will start walking a path of recovery together. I am here to share my story with you so that if you are the person waiting to know you aren't alone, I'm here. I wait for you to find me, and we will heal together in the name of love.

I acknowledge and I know you are out there looking for me too.

Let's get ready to walk a life inRhymes and heal together.