Walls

pg. 22

Love:

It can knock you down and rebuild you as many times as it takes. The walls go up, the walls come down. If you build them too big, you can get lost behind them and others can find a way in. If you build them too small, they'll close in around you like a box suffocating the life from you.

Forever building and tearing down but never checking on the internal structure or foundation. It's easy to let every decision ever made stack like a misplaced piece of concrete.

Every failure. Every wrong turn. I've held the lies inside in mind. I've held the wrongs in my heart. Until there were so many stones and bricks, I found myself screaming and the sound just echoing off the walls around me. Nobody could hear me, never did I think anyone would ever get in.

I have hurt myself more times with my own self talk than the things of the past that I perceived to have hurt me. Which in turn has made me harder on myself than anyone else could ever be. When I am my own worst enemy, everyone else becomes collateral damage if I throw the stones back.

So here it is, your sticks and stones didn't break my bones, but I took your words and built a fortress around me. I've been hiding behind walls with stories bigger than they deserved to be. I let each one weigh me down, brick by brick, by stones and sticks. Built so tight and high, until one day they blocked in the light.

Well, it's time these walls come down and I trust in myself again.

I won't wait for someone to fix me.

I won't wait for the prince to come and save me.

I will burst through, and I will knock down these walls to save me.

Today is the first day of a new life. One of 100% faith that I know where I am going even if it feels that I don't. I am no longer letting the past keep me prisoner behind walls of anger and distrust. I won't deny the experiences of my life and I will trust that with every brick I take down, I will build something new, something bigger and something with a solid foundation.

Or maybe, I won't build anything at all. I will stand on the bricks like my own personal pyramids and will shine bright to lead others into a life without walls blocking the way to finding their own light.

I am going to make the best of what is left of this life. I will stand tall and not be afraid of what's on the other side. I will stand free of the walls that imprison me.

I will stand brave against those afraid of my light.

To be the love I want to see in the world, I will stand strong even when others cast stones.

I know that I don't need walls to protect me when I have love before me.

I won't carry judgements with me but will use them as the bricks on the path as I leave it behind.

Love is how the walls come down and poetic journey begins.

Everything that comes before and after, is just another one of life's rhymes.

Love and Light.